Quote and nice appiphany

He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away. ~Raymond Hull

Recently, I felt myself changing into someone I knew I was not. Someone who put herself out there and encouraged the wrong things. So when I think I am doing that again, I will think of Mr Hull again, because I am me and no one has the right to take that away! So if they try to do that to me again, I'll just give them the cold shoulder.

Besides, they are a money waster.

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Can't get him off my mind. The nothingness that has never happened with bitch boy that will never happen has me all eaten up inside. 3 months and I still haven't got over him, and I need to because it is NOT good for me! He is not good for me because he is making me feel this horrible. He and I don't have the same interests, he's not all that good looking and he's an ASS for making me feel so bad. I don't need him.

And yet I'm waiting up for him to text even though I've turned my phone off.. Detoxing from it. Stupid freaking idiot I am. I spend too much time and money (yeah!) on him. Like that movie, he's just not that into me. End of story.

SO to cheer me up, I'll think about something good that happened today. After two days of advance and retreat because he had negative connotations attached to being around me, he came to me today and I was proud as punch. He is such a sweet pony. That's some boy I can hopefully rely on in the future. I know I can rely on my Sandy man and Louie :)